Today was a grey and raining day. One almost predetermined for pondering and self reflection.
It's almost impossible to say that we don't feel some surrealism that Brian's cancer has returned. Because in truth, we had just about gotten to that point where we thought that enough time has passed that we could stop living in fear, waiting.
That is some kind of twisted ironic-ism. I guess the three hags of fate are laughing right now. Damn Hags...
One of the biggest pitfalls we need to avoid right now are the "if onlies". It's really easy to get bogged down in them.
If only we didn't have A,B, and C to get done...If only D....not only are they depressing but worse yet they can sap your energy like a leach. Energy you can not afford them.
They are legitimate things, but they need to be addressed carefully...I find that trying to simply them is the easiest way to hand them. Easier said then done for sure, but essential to remaining focused, in control and with a semblance of organization.
See Cancer or any other serious life event doesn't care if your car has to many miles on it, or you have a partially done bathroom project, or even if you have older pets that require more diligent care...it does what it wants, when it wants and the best way you can cope is to simply have enough money to hire someone to solve those problems.
HaHaHa...
For the rest of us, well, we just have to be happy with doing the best we can under circumstances that can be really hard to understand.
This is one of those rare instances where sometimes it is really good to be a control freak. Oh, and did I mention that a twisted, sarcastic, demented sense of humor is really important??
That and a recording of "happy shinny people"
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