Well, the car accident has really emotionally pushed us a little closer to the edge....it is not a good thing.
Brian had a terrible day yesterday emotionally...mentally..really pushed me to the point where I had to make him sit down and think if continuing to live here was in all of our best interests.
It sounds hard I know, but with the accident...no reliable car...no car for me at all, I simply can not have him acting out and on a manic roller coaster.
We're scared...we are kicked further down then ever before and there is no light at the end of that tunnel right now...I understand why he feels like he does...we are falling apart.
will it get better?...IDK
12/17 14 year anniversary of Brian's first cancer diagnosis...we really have been through the ringer...and NO ONE saw where we are today as where we would be.
as always there are those who manage to make me feel like my best is never good enough as well.
please share and help us to get another car if you can..it would take a lot of pressure off.
and we could regain some normal something....at least go further with the cat adoptions and get Brian to Philly in FEB.
or maybe I will just find a nice bridge to jump off of...starting to be a very appealing alternative.
http://www.gofundme.com/5ilsw0
Brian had a terrible day yesterday emotionally...mentally..really pushed me to the point where I had to make him sit down and think if continuing to live here was in all of our best interests.
It sounds hard I know, but with the accident...no reliable car...no car for me at all, I simply can not have him acting out and on a manic roller coaster.
We're scared...we are kicked further down then ever before and there is no light at the end of that tunnel right now...I understand why he feels like he does...we are falling apart.
will it get better?...IDK
12/17 14 year anniversary of Brian's first cancer diagnosis...we really have been through the ringer...and NO ONE saw where we are today as where we would be.
as always there are those who manage to make me feel like my best is never good enough as well.
please share and help us to get another car if you can..it would take a lot of pressure off.
and we could regain some normal something....at least go further with the cat adoptions and get Brian to Philly in FEB.
or maybe I will just find a nice bridge to jump off of...starting to be a very appealing alternative.
http://www.gofundme.com/5ilsw0
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